BPD/Getting Out of "Self"
I was recently diagnosed as having Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). I read the Preface and some of I Hate You, Don't Leave Me and I already know I have BPD. It is emotionally hard to read and a bit scary, and I question whether I can eradicate the symptoms. But I finally put down alcohol for good, and I never thought I could, so I am trying to remain positive and hopeful. I prayed to my Higher Power, The Limitless One (that's a future blog entry) Monday night to help me remove the bondage of self and accept the things that I cannot change. Yesterday my focus was on recovery and others (I texted a number of women in the morning just to tell them I love them, or have a great day, or that I am grateful for them) and I felt completely different than Monday when I was consumed with sorrow, remorse, pain, and self-loathing. Yesterday I had a feeling which is very rare to me - I felt peace.