Well, I have decided that I am going to take the plunge and try to sell some of my paintings. Moving to the mountains while also being close to an artistic area is a dream come true for me. I was looking around on craigslist and saw a posting about having a curbside art event. Normally I would mumble something self-effacing to myself and dismiss the idea. What changed my mind was a recent visit to a cafe in Annapolis. A local artist had her works all over the walls of the cafe, and she apparently had a reception there before we arrived. I was looking around at her paintings, and I thought to myself "If she can do it, I can do it". I responded to the curbside art posting and attached 4 paintings that I did recently. She could have been trying to save my feelings, but she said that she loved them. Again, my insecurities kicked in and I decided that she must be desperate and wants to promote her gallery by this event. Someone pointed out to me that she would not want art displayed in front of her gallery if she did not like it, as it might undermine her gallery collection. So, I have decided to go with that thought. I am a little apprehensive about it, but if I can keep my ego in check and not take it personally if I don't sell anything, I will be o.k. Easier said than done. I feel good about my decision. I will just try to remember that "A man's heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps. If we are doing God's will, we will be in right place". [Proverbs 16:9]. All I can do is the footwork, and leave the rest to Him. ___________________________________________________
On another note, I am quitting smoking on Monday...I have my patches and lollipops ready. Please pray for me! Or better yet, pray for Delores because she has to live with me!
I painted the below last night. It doesn't do much for me. I chose the colors because I had intended it to be for a friend, but I don't like it enough to give to her. Normally, if I don't like something that I painted, I would just paint over it in white and start again; the impetuous being that I didn't want to waste a canvas. Now I use wood boards a lot and they are much less expensive than canvas (but a lot harder to mount). I think I will just leave this one alone. We are going to go to the hardware store this weekend and try to find a way to mount the ones made of thin as well as thick wood so the weight will be supported on the wall but at the same time not ruin the painting by unintended punctures. I am a lazy hanger - luckily I have Delores to help me. She will insist that it is done right! :)
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One other thing: We watched an old video of Bob Ross (1942 - 1995) last night. Do you remember him? He was really popular back in the 70s. He did landscape paintings with a very interesting technique. Even though his art is not my cup of tea, I love to watch him create. He makes it look so easy. I am trying to get inspiration wherever I can. Today Delores and I are going downtown to see some local art at the Asheville Area Arts Council, the Asheville Gallery of Art, the Asheville Art Museum, and will visit some studios in the River Arts District. We are also going to go to Jonas Gerard's studio. I think his work is brilliant. He reminds me a bit of Kandinsky. He is the most popular artist in the area. I can't wait! It's 5:45 in the morning (my new meds have actually turned me into a morning person, which is shocking for me!). After I wake up a bit I am going to be moving art tables and supplies from the dining room back out to the garage since the weather is warmer now.
We went to Jonas Gerard's studio yesterday. What an awesome experience. He was out of town, which worked well, because I wasn't ready to come face-to-face with the artist on my initial visit. He is the most popular artist in Asheville. He is part of the River District Artists' group and has a 5,000 ft. studio/gallery right near the French Broad river. His staff mentioned yesterday that he is very backlogged on requests for his art. His works start at $50 for a print and $75 for a ceramic tile (and the way he creates those is a very interesting process but I don't remember how the process was described - my memory isn't what it used to be (another reason to go back to the studio, again and again...)) - but some of the paintings on canvas and his sculptures go as high as $20,000! I have never been so moved by an artist before (not even Frida Kahlo, but it would be unfair to make the comparison because they have completely different styles, circumstances, and are from different time periods). If you are interested, go to his web site and you will see a link to a video (in the first row on the left of the page) which not only shows the process of his work, but also shows a very happy man doing what he loves to do. I was told that I could take pictures, and we were also told that we could touch the paintings - to feel the energy that the work holds. I did take pictures - and those are the ones I will post, but his site will of course have better photos. We were allowed into the studio where he works, which was awesome, because we got to see the tools and paints he uses. There are rooms sectioned off and the displays are very impressive when you see them up close. I have put some of the pictures that I took on his page on this site - both artwork and his studio set-up.
First day smoke free! I put on the patch - I don't notice any discomfort yet, but that morning cigarette was my favorite! So, this is the hardest time of day for me as far as wanting to smoke.
On another note, I did a painting last night. The colors were requested, and they are not the colors I would typically choose. I try to avoid green; it's my least favorite color and I struggle with how to use it. I think I will shift my focus back to reds, yellows, and blues.
I have been doing paintings on wood and I like the texture and strength that it offers (not to mention it's cheaper than canvas). The only problem with it is mounting it adequately so it will stay secured on the wall without driving a screw all the way through the back of the painting and ruining it.
I bought a really large piece of wood (way larger than my usual 24 x 24) and I look forward to seeing what will become of it. There is something intimidating about large "canvases" to me - you really have to have confidence in what you are doing when you work on such a large scale. Then again, if I don't like it, I can always paint over it.
I did the below this afternoon. Not sure if I like it or not. I am just going to keep cranking out the paintings and I will eventually see one I like. I just can't seem to get my groove back on.
Day 2 without cigarettes. I got up at 3:30 a.m. and really wanted one, so I put on a new patch. I was supposed to put one on at 5:00 a.m. anyway. Lollipops are helping. I am already starting to feel better without them. Did another painting last night. It helps to clear my mind.
Yes, I am a big sap. I am indifferent to this one. When I was at the doctor's office recently I asked if I could have some of the disposable towels/napkins. They add a nice texture.
Day three of not smoking! I woke up at 2:30 a.m. today. I will most likely fall over by afternoon!
I have had a few minor cravings, but luckily I am not irritable. I am looking forward to trying out my new mountain bike that Delores bought for me last year. Now that I have committed to not smoking, I just need to take the next step and exercise. I know how much it will improve my quality of life (there are too many great places to hike and bike here to miss out on). I used to be an avid runner, so I know the benefits of having those endorphines. I am starting very slowly.
My "art therapy" goal for today is to paint something that I like. ____________________________________________________
April 24, 2008
Day four of not smoking! Had a few cravings yesterday. I was up when it was still dark and I wanted to go sit outside and see the sunrise, but it made me want to smoke so I didn't go out. I need to avoid any triggers right now. Thank God for the patch.
I have decided that most of the paintings I did this past week are being sent to the "Stack of Shame." The Stack of Shame is where I put paintings I don't like, to either paint white and do something different, or just leave alone. I did four paintings yesterday.
So, my goal yesterday was to paint something that I like. I think I like the first and second one, and the third one is o.k. Not sure about the other one. I am just going to keep at it. I am putting silly, unnecessary pressure on myself to do something great for that Curbside Art show. Delores reminds me to just have fun, not to obsess...she also offered the advice not to make something "sloppy" - drips, etc. So, I need to just do what I used to do - paint quickly and not try too hard. I have been saying to myself and out loud that I don't think anything will sell. Delores said that if I think that way, they won't. I need to remember the advice from The Secret - roughly, what you put out comes back to you.
Before I can paint today I need to work on putting some CDs back in their cases - about 200 are out of their cases. I have about 700 CDs, and I finally finished putting them all on the IPod. [400 days of continuous music!] What a tedious task that was! I am thrilled, however, because I have a pod dock in my office and in the garage, so I can just move all my music around. And an adapter for the truck, of course. ____________________________________________________
Speaking of the truck, while I was in MD at IKEA a couple of weeks ago someone keyed both sides of the truck, down the whole length of each side. I have no idea why. Well, as it has been proven to me time and time again, what seems like a bad thing can turn out to be a great thing. My car insurance paid for the body work. It looks so good! I had scraped the passenger side in a parking garage, and they fixed that too! $1200 of free body work. I am so grateful. ____________________________________________________
Back to painting:
As I mentioned before, I bought a very large piece of wood to try painting. It's 48 x 48.
I call it "The Behemoth." What you see on it now is Joint Compound. I like to use it sometimes for texture. The Behemoth is intimidating. Delores keeps trying to encourage me to work on it, and reminds me that I can always paint over it if I don't like it, but I keep stalling and working on the usual 24 x 24 pieces of wood. I will force myself if necessary to work on it before the weekend is over. I am just not used to using broad strokes. Wish me luck. ___________________________________________________
One more thing: on Friday, we are starting a class at the local tech college. I had taken a Creative Writing class there in the Fall, and really liked it. Here's the description of the class:
Mastering the Basic Elements of Fiction This is an exciting new course, designed for professional writers and aspiring authors of fiction and non-fiction. This workshop will emphasize the basic elements of creative writing, characterization, description, narrative summary, dialogue and plot. No textbook will be used. Class is taught by author, David Pereda. (15 hrs)
We are really looking forward to it. Delores already has about a 100 books in her head :) so that is great. I only have one book that I want to write, and it should write itself because I am basing it on my wild ride of life. I don't know anything about creating dialogue and character development, so this should be very informative.
Have a great day! ____________________________________________________
Today was a great day for painting. I ended up re-doing one of the above paintings and I like it a lot better. I did two and am already almost finished with a third. I am trying to be more spontaneous and let go a little more.
Day 5 of not smoking! I am already feeling better. I got on the exercise bike this a.m. - it's a good way to start. I can't run/walk near our house because the roads are not safe. Too many curves, no shoulder, and people tend to drive faster than they should. There is a great park on the French Broad river where we have taken Seven. I am going to start trying to run there after I have ridden the exercise bike for a week. Unfortunately, with gas prices being what they are, it's not convenient. Everything is about 20 miles away from us since we live on the mountain. I am not complaining, however. I love the solitude of living up here.
I am making an effort to expand the color base that I use. For example, I never use pink. A friend wants a painting, and she likes pink, so I am trying to warm up to it.
I didn't work long on the CDs yesterday so I have to force myself to today before I go on another painting binge. Yesterday it was close to 80 here, and I naturally didn't want to spend the day cooped up in a room putting CDs back in their cases. The upstairs room is going to be used as Delores' writing room, though, so I want to make sure everything is put away. We bought her a typewriter and it should be here today. That way she can write without the distraction of a computer, and of course, without the distraction of me and Seven too! :) Seven is really attached to Delores - she followers her everywhere. It's cute.
Hope you have a great day! ____________________________________________________
April 26, 2008
Day 6 of not smoking! Had a busy and productive day yesterday. We attended our first class. It is being taught by David Pereda. I think it will provide what were are looking for - namely, how to craft the basic elements of a book: description, characterization, narrative, plot, and dialogue. I need to pray for tolerance and patience because I got a little annoyed during the introductions. We are there to become better writers and/or to get the basic information needed to write fiction. The purpose of the introduction is to indicate our level of experience with writing, and particularly, writing fiction. There were people in the class telling us where they grew up, and other irrelevant and uninteresting nonsense. Whoops - there I go again being judgemental. I guess I don't suffer dorks gladly. :)
During class, we found out about a group called the Asheville Writing Enthusiasts. They have speakers once a month and critiques once a month. We may check them out.
I had done Chapter One of a book and I was looking at it during class. I can already see where I didn't follow "the writing rules" so I will start from scratch. Actually, when I read it, it sounded pretty silly. That's o.k., that is why I am taking the class. :) Delores is more the writer than me. I would like to write a book, however, if just for me and a few friends who need something to read at night to fall asleep! ____________________________________________________
We tried out a new hair salon yesterday - the reason I am telling you is because I chatted with the stylist doing my hair and asked her for recommendations around town for where I can possibly take my paintings for sale (coffee shops, etc.). She gave me some places to check out. The art scene in Asheville is very much a word of mouth thing. The good part, however, is that artists here very much encourage and support other artists. There's more of a focus on "we" than "I". When I looked into the art show I am going to, I got an invitation to a festival-type event that is expected to have 77,000 in attendance. While the person who told me about it said my paintings would fit right in, I feel a smaller-scale event is more appropriate for my first time. The stylist suggested I bring something by the salon - that they hang a few paintings in the back. I checked them out, and I don't think my paintings would fit in there. ____________________________________________________